Hai. Im Abigail and im from Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Today I feel like telling my life story to you guys, i dont even know why, but i feel like i should. I dont seek pitty or any of that. Just read and understand what your action or bullying could do to others. First of all, when i was 13. I've entered my pre'teen years of life. That means going to a new school, new friends and shit. So, at 13 i met this girl named.. well, i'll changed her name just so that no feelings get hurt. Named Carolina. She was nice and stuff but one month or two months later, she was a bit off limits. A bit mistakes i make and she would 'ceramah' me and would some times get over board with it. So as a pay back, i told people what she had said to me about them and every time and everything that i said back fire at me. 3 years i've been stuck with them. being bullied and being pushed around by your so call 'frends' I dont even know if i even have friends in that school anymore. She used her smooth words to get through every wrong that she has ever done and used my name to blame everything. She backed me up but once people ganged up on me, i could see deep in her soul that she was pleased with what she had done. by the middle of the year i started self harm. This is how i make myself feel better but once they saw what i did to myself, the bullying gets ever worse! They dont leave me alone anymore. They bully me every time they get the chance to get there hands on me. My friends? I dont think i have them anymore. No one backed me up. It got to the point where I couldn't even go to class anymore, where i would skip school. I didn't tell anybody, including my parents cause i feel like no one would understand. my self harm got to the point of killing myself. running away from my parents and shit. but when i go to school next day, they would just teased me. writing on the board replacing my name to somebody else's name saying 'chloe ran away from home' and all stuff that aren't nice. All 3 years there thats all i could remember. I hated them for that but still forgave them. There came a point one day where i really couldn't take it anymore and took 6 pills. I didn't even knew what they would do but it sure did help. I've changed a lot since then. got quite and i would always be scared going out. I cant even step outside even if its with family. I was afraid that I would see them in public and they would make fun of me at school just like they always do. I was scared for myself and every time I felt scared, I would self harm so the scary things would go away and that I feel better and could face the world again. But one day I got the courage to tell myself that self harm wont do any good and dying is NOT the only way out of bullying. There we're a lot of was to get away from bullying. I told my parents about it and they changed my school as quick as they could. I know i made my mistakes but bullying does not give you justice. It just shows how ugly you are inside and out. I have seen so many stories about kids or even adults being bully and killing them self in the end cause they cant take it anymore. We have to fight them. Dont give in. You are strong and beautiful/handsome no matter what the fuck they say! trust me, If we stand tall together, we could stop bullying once and for all! #survivorsofbullying
